Emotion:lonely?
Random Thought:do i miss him?
What:dixie chicks-landslide

i think more than anything this week has been a little difficult, a little more than anticipated. perhaps i'm just honestly menstraul. i'm sitting here just waiting for ate to come home. right now i feel like i'm just in limbo with a lot of things.

i truly enjoyed myself at church today. i felt tingly inside and just a little more connected than usual. it was a beautfiul mass featuring readings in tagalog, spanish, and english. it's not very often that we are able to enrich ourselves with such culture at our lady. after church a procession took place where we circled around the area and prayed the rosary. definitely something different.

i accidentally called him too. i meant to speed dial my best friend but i accidentally pressed his number. this is a prime example of my stubborness. i'm unwilling to admit the obvious. for those of you reading this you've already jumped to the conclusion that i do in fact miss him, but i'm just not admitting it to myself. ha interesting that i'm listening to " i ain't missing you at all" rod stewart i think? at least it sounds like him.


after all is done and over with, the jewelry just becomes an accessory. i wore a ring that i hadn't touched in over 5 years today. at first hesistant for the past welded into it, but like i said, accessory. at first i placed it onto my left ring finger, but realized the contradiction or wearing it there so i switched hands.

am i just being stupid? am i giving myself too much time to think about things? am i really bothered by it all?