Emotion:upset.
Random Thought: i'm mad at this thing called love.
What:

i'm mad at this thing called love where every woman supposedly needs a man. where shit gets dirty and it ends. too hard to handle too stupid to realize. i'm just bitter about the whole thing. i know that i'm a definitely not gf material. i don't have time for one. i can't manage one. thus no reason for me to be in one. but i feel like i'm entitled to it one day, just not now. lex used to really piss me, felt like i was suffocating, but i loved him. i know i was a bad gf, i knew i mistreated him and i admitted that to my friends. it's hard trying to balance a career and love.