Emotion:
Random Thought:working on myself.
What:nat king cole

during those times when i feel like talking to someone and i just can't seem to get the words out, writing fills the emptiness.

poured into the optimistic glass
overflowing with . . .

that was just a random start to something. this week has been filled with things that should have been taken care of before but i never really had the courage to do so. i wrote emails to people from high school. the ones that i felt like i could never settle things with before. i'm sure i've written this before, but a life without forgiveness is a life of slavery. and for 5 years i've dwelled on high school past, wishing to one day make amends with it. i finally sent them emails because that was the only way i could really get in contact with them. so that's that i guess. i've said my peace.

i have a burning sensation in my stomach. the 3 shots of patron is still brewing in my stomach, as if it's burning the outer lining. why is it that it's hard to completely be honest to yourself on this blog. hopefully one day i'll progress to that point where i can just spill the beans and not care what will come of it. these are my thoughts and i do need to express them. but maybe not here? maybe in a more private journal that's not online for public viewing.

you know i've missed out on a couple of great events that could've helped with my filipin@ness. i think i'm at a point where i don't want to be outta the loop, i want to be more invovled yes.