Emotion:
Random Thought:i need some alone time.
What:via tania

i can't carry on like this. i think once i admitted it to myself, things just went downhill from there. i find myself reminscing of what was and what could've been. i wonder if ever, a day will come. perhaps i do this because i'm afraid of moving forward. afraid of so many coincidences. wow. . . so overwhelmed with emotions right now, i didn't expect to feel this way. (oh god, please just let this be something menstrual) don't mind me if i'm distant for a while or am just not picking up calls, i just need some alone time. i need some "me" time. i find myself drawn to memories, to 20 minute drives, to mental vacations, etc.

i am most definitely afraid of loving another, w/o an impermeable chasity belt. i don't even know if i'm willing to let go of the idea yet. i'm scared of things when it just seems right. like letting a good wave pass by because of fear. has my flirtatious nature taken me too far? have i ruined something good? am i forgetting my goals? am i letting myself go?

don't mind my hibernation. i most definitely need some alone time. i must crawl before i learn how to run again.