Emotion:a little more depressed than usual.
Random Thought:
What:tv noise/junk.

sometimes i don't understand where these tears come from. i guess i'm feeling confined as if i can't even get a word out sometimes and i'm always pushed back into the tight spaces of the yesterdays. just constantly feeling the pulls of social, family, love, and academic life and with the pending career. feeling as if i'm struggling trying to please everyone though i know it's not my duty. asking that my family understands this transition that i've made since supposedly they should know me best after 23 years. yet i feel like i'm struggling alone and can't really turn to anyone in fear that they'll just turn me around in a different direction.

i'm sitting here in the dark thinking about all the guilt that's placed on my "unintentionally" by people in my life. guess they don't understand how it affects me and when i try to communicate how i'm affected. . . i feel silenced almost immediately. not even sure if i'm making sense. hating this feeling right now.

as if i'm always on the brink of tears.