Emotion:relieved.
Random Thought:thank god.
What:mike isberto-baby it's cold outside.

i'm really impressed with this guy's vocals. reminds me of harry connick jr, a very warm and inviting voice. sultry at that. so a plethora of emotions and thoughts are running through my mind. these are usually conflict ideas that i sort through in order to come to a conclusion or before i decide to take action.

i've been reflecting on this whole dating scene and my place in it. as much as i enjoy doing this, i realize that i separate myself from these fellas and focus more on developing a friendship first and then perhaps getting into a relationship. i guess you can say that i've internalized the friends first method after much persuasion from family. it seems to be the best way to go about things right now, at the same time it depends on the degree of friendship that has been established. if you keep the doors open for an intimate relationship after the friendship has been established, then i think it's possible. but when you've already begun to place friends into the proximity of family-status/brothers/kuyas what have you, then it's pretty much shot to shit. = ) ((i really like saying that "shot to shit")). so based on all this introspection, i've come to the conclusion that it's not that i'm pushing them away, i'm just getting to know them. treating them as my friends because that type of relationship serves as the basis of what could come in the future.

school is finally over for the semester. part of my worries are over, but i've got a good 15 days to finish everything else. i've got mixed feelings about going to the philippines on the 30th. Of course i'm looking forward to a break from San Diego and just this atmosphere, but again I don't want to be working, stressing over my sister's weddding which will be the scenario. i want to slowly go into seclusion and only keep in close contact with those who are in the "circle of trust" hehe. that's all i really need right some nice rest and relaxation. Graduation is so close, yet so far. It should be the last thing on my mind right now.

I should be enjoying the start of my vacation, yet i'm thinking about christmas and all the shopping/crafting that i need to do. yea, i worry too damn much, think too damn much, but it must be beneficial because it's gotten me this far in life. right?