Emotion:
Random Thought:lakas sa loob o lakas so labas?
What:

not exactly sure at this moment in time where i fit in academically and in the scheme of "csusm crew" stupid i know, but it helps to release some of the frustrations. writing is my only true friend that i can abuse, not much of a reciprocated relationship but i can showcase my elaborate dependency on it. it's just so interesting how time changes all things. as i make my transition out of this university i find myself feeling more and more displaced. i tremble as i walk through those doors into the doom (hah, dome). i feel at ease when i am surrounded by my peers that i have spent most of my collegial time with and have grown with me, but when it comes to new folks and folks surrounded by a certain individual, i'm at a loss?

not exactly sure where these insecurities are stemming from. i know i shouldn't dedicate so much of my time and emotions into this but i suppose i just enjoy getting down to the root of things.