Emotion:this bites.
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so i'm trying to come to terms with my emotions and i want to just say that they're only skin deep. i want to say that they only exist into the world that i'm confined too. i'm trying to come to the conclusion as to where this stems from. i want to blame my parents. i want to blame my mom for her lack of sincerity, but then i think about her socialization. her process growing up and how that effects me. sometimes i just want to stop looking at the bigger pictures and just see it face value. just see it as is. i don't want to explain to you why things are the way they are because of the extensive process behind it. i just want to live to live. i'm tired of trying to live up to my parents' expectations especially the pressure my mom gives me. i'm tired of having religious beliefs and ideas shoved down my throat. i'm tired of having my parents overlook my pain and not understanding that i went through shit. i'm tired of them saying that they're too busy with their own shit. the root of my problems, existence, being is within my family. my parents.

yea i'm just overly frustrated right now.