Emotion:nervous.
Random Thought: just browsing through msw programs is nerve-wrecking
What:lecture

i'm trying to understand my emotions right now, why am i constantly on this rollercoaster? i think part of it is contributed to the uncertainty of my life after graduation. as exciting as it is, graduating i mean, i'd like to know what i'm going to do afterwards. my fear is that i'll end up in a 9-5 job that has nothing to do with my majors or my intended goals. i fear that i won't get accepted to the school that i want to. . in this case SFSU. after carefully considering my options, i think the only course that i can take with sfsu is to apply to the ethnic studies masters program and then switch to social work. i can attend csu fresno or csu east bay, as long as i meet the requirements. it's nerve wrecking, honestly. i can feel my blood pressure rising just thinking about what's to come. i admit there is a hint of fear in the thought of moving out to the city of unfamiliarity.

this seems to be apart of the stem of my emotional unstability.