Emotion:
Random Thought:it's been a while.
What:

so it's been a while since i've written anything or expressed myself. i'm at a loss, i can't find my paints. i really just need to get a lot of stress and frustration out. i'm falling a part. what i once had put together is slowly falling into shambles. i don't think i've ever fallen this deep before and i'm almost scared that i'm goin to be washed away. my legacy, my own personal foundation that i've taken 23 years to create is changing. . . i'm not sure whether it's a positive thing or not. i'm just afraid that i'll never be able to turn back to a place of comfort. it's such a deep pain of cries that i have never heard. yet i still keep going through it all. . . it's even deeper than my cries.