Emotion:confessional.
Random Thought:it's hard to admit.
What:4th ave jones.

i hate to admit it to myself, but i honestly feel like i haven't put in a lot into my words. I think I could've honestly perfomed better with the several student organizations that i was invovled in. My jobs were half-assed. My failure to acknowledge and address the seriousness of the task at hand resulted in the failure of the student organizations. I feel like I don't give all that I can and that i tend to procrastinate a lot. my dreams. . .of strong students orgs and such are just that. . dreams. i feel like i honestly haven't put in a lot of work to make them what they need to be. yea, it's an upsetting reality that i must face and change.
i get overwhelmed just thinking about it all. that's not a good sign at all.

i've been in quite the reflective mood lately. not exactly sure what's in my future anymore. i don't even know if i can maintain the lifestyle my parents provide for me after i finally find a job. my fears are getting the best of me.

yea. . i have so much running through my head right now that i don't even know if i can capture it all on paper.