Emotion:disturbed.
Random Thought:my body can't take much more.
What:a car driving down the street.

i'm tired. i don't think i can take another conversation about my sister's wedding. my only hope is that they have the wedding that they want and not someone else's. i honestly can't take anymore side planning, planning that doesn't even include my sister and brother-in-law's opinion. yep. in case you didn't know i'm very overprotective of my sisters, even against my parents. but it goes both ways. . . i guess you can say that i play the mediator sometimes. i did probably the worst thing that i could have ever done a couple of hours ago. i think i crushed my mom's dreams of her daughter's marriage. let me explain the situation. my sister and fiancee want to have an intimate wedding in the philippines. they're planning on inviting 75-100 of their closest friends. my mom and cousin came up with a list of relatives on both my mom's and dad's side that came out to 106 people. as you can imagine when i told my sister about that she was ecstatic. she asked me to talk to my mom. . so i called my dad to ask him to calm down my mom. boy, i felt really bad. my mom calls me minutes later and we have a chat. meanwhile i'm crying because i have to talk to my mom about this, telling her to consider my sister and keith when making such plans. telling her that my sister and i are frustrated with my mom's pressing suggestions. argh. (i think my health is really suffering from all of this. . i'm getting those tension headaches back again) well anyways, i can't stand listening to my mom and cousin make plans for my sister's wedding when that's not what she wants. man i just hurt my mom's feelings. . that's the worst thing i could've ever done especially when she's excited about my sister's wedding.

too frustrated to continue.