Emotion:
Random Thought: at what cost am i risking everything?
What: "hooray for the powerpuff girls"

i'm a little disappointed in myself. i started reading "the purpose driven life" (i know it should be underlined but i don't know how to do that) which is a 40 day committment and i had stopped at the mere beginning. i suppose that shows that i can't make a committment in the smallest form? or is it because i've allowed certain occassions come in between my priorities which is usually the case in a lot of situations.

so again, i ask "at what cost am i risking everything?" my dreams and hopes of being in the big city put me at many risks. i've always been optomistic in these situations, always beliving that if not now then there's always something better in the near future. it's funny how life's philosophies contradict. "no day but today, live today as if it's your last day" and "there's always tomorrow, look towards a brighter day" so i suppose, i know this conclusion has always been drawn, but life is just a big contradiction.