Emotion:disconnected.
Random Thought:none.
What:noise.

so i've contemplated and i'm still contemplating. i just practiced civil inattention, shame on me. oh well. this girl walked by and dropped her student i.d. i just sat here and kept typing. it's still on the ground. don't you hate it when you're the only one who notices something. so yes, anyways. i've managed to spend $200 in 4 days just prepping for the P.I. I bought two pants and some necessities from victoria's secret. it's the semi-annual sale. i had to have a feel good day. i'm slowly getting back into the groove of things. I'm able to shop alone and enjoy it. I can paddle out and enjoy the ocean. two days in a row i was able to see the dolphins play. i'm a little darker, but i'm a little happier. during ali's birthday, i just stayed out for 4 hrs here and there. it was great to be able to ride the waves. Each time i'm getting closer and closer to a full drop-knee. The cuts are still strong and i can still sit on my board. i'm just sad that i have to leave during the high tides. = T i can't really board in the pie anyways.

speaking of that, so i come to find out that my mom has been telling my friends of my adventure. i ran into David snatch yesterday. "aren't you supposed to be in pie?" Me:"howdy you know?" him: "your mom told me." heh. interesting. i guess that's something my mom likes to share with people. people know i'm going to the philippines, but some people don't know it's for school. i feel rather obliged that i'm going to attend UP diliman. I wonder if i would have gotten accepted to that school if i was a regular student from the PI. one can only wonder. you know, i'm in good company. i shouldn't waste me time on people who aren't willing to put some effort into our relationship. it's the greatest thing just being able to enjoy each other's company while engaging in some stimulating conversation over some drinks or even during a bonfire. i'm meeting some interesting people and sharing some interesting experiences with others.

on saturday, ali and i went to snatch a pit. unsuccessful. so we ate at denny's and eventually picked up rosemarie. it was a good day.

sunday, i woke up to the news.

today, i tried to find some sanctuary.

i crave the wave. i think i lost my lola's earrings. she had those since she was 16. maybe my mom is just hiding them because she saw them lying around the house. yep.

interesting how circles represent life, viciousness, bags, and recyclables
yet sometimes we want the spin to come to an end just for a brief moment so that we can encompass complete content with the ride we just took

(don't ask, i won't tell)