i finally watched crouching tiger, hidden dragon. it was mediocre compared to other asian kung fu movies, but it was weird watching for film score purposes only. music does add a lot to the emotions of a film.

bear with me, this entry is going to be an organized mess. it's been a while since i've let a lot of emotions out, which i think many of need to do. it's healthy for us, humans, to let out the emotions we've buried so deep inside our hearts. it's hard to be a good catholic. lately, i've been doing a lot of self evaluation.

i'm getting tired of apss. i think it's because i've lost myself, but gained a new self that i wasn't prepared for. that seems to be the pattern of my newly gained horizons. i really miss the simple life. it's become so complex since apss became a big priority in my life. i mean, coming into college i was really introverted, which is what i wanted because i didn't want the drama that accompanied the relationships. usually i have just a couple of close friends, and a lot of acquaintances. and i'm fine with that, but with apss i feel like i have to be cautious of who i do business with or what not. i mean, not internally but externally. i'm learning by just taking part in this organization, but at the same time i'm ready to just give it up as soon as elections are through. ya, that's apss.

because i've met so many people from apss and school, whatever else it's made extremely hard to be a good catholic. to not judge and not have the urge to judge others is a really hard trait to eliminate. i don't want to boar animosity in my heart nor do i want anyone else to. i just wish that life was simple again. i'm a simple woman with a complex mind.

lex and i have a siamese kitty that we found in his backyard last week. her name is tsiko (chiko). she's a pretty cool cat. ya okay.

end. for now.