love is just a big confusing matter. i don't want to be in love again, my heart isn't prepared to do that. i wasn't ready to fall in love, but then again love doesn't wait for anyone. i've always believed that if you were meant to be with someone, you'll be with them regardless. if i was meant to be with him, i'd be with him, but not now. now isn't my time, notice i said my because i knew where he stood. maybe i'm just stupid, i ended a relationship with someone that women always ask for. someone that really loves them, that surprises them, that listens to them, everything. everything any man or woman can ask for. and i ended that to soul search, to be free. malaya.