okay. it's been a while since i've written something here or actually took some time to contemplate on life.

LOVE
lex and i are doing great. i couldn't ask for anyone more perfect than him. "you are my perfect human." we'll have our ups and downs, but we get through them somehow. i don't know how, but we just do. it's really something special when a complete stranger tells you that you are a truly wonderful couple. "very in love." we seem to get that a lot. although, i think my family is getting tired of seeing him on a daily basis.

FAMILY
ate rianne tore her acl. she has to have surgery next month. my mom's tendonitis has toned down, not as much pain. i'm not sure about the cist in her ovary. surgery is still a thought. my dad, well dad is dad. ate ricel, i can't say much about her. i haven't talked to her in a while. she is safe though considering the accident near her place in Santa Monica. Sunday, my family got into an argument about miscommunications. ate rianne and i thought we were just going to glance at condos in RB, turns out we were going to sit through some lectures and business as well. none of us were prepared for that so i bailed out. mom got angry. she's been acting strange lately. it has to do with menopause. i think she's experiencing that now. not sure.

FRIENDS
I think a new page has been written. Someone once told me, "maybe you're not meant to be friends with them," something along those lines. with college, comes a new set of friends. i've been spending time with jenelle though. we still keep in touch. just recently irma wrote me an email and aimee called me up. i seem to be keeping in touch with those i thought i would lose contact with.

SCHOOL
I'm taking a sociology class this 2nd sem. It's interesting, something I can be truly vocal in. I've finally caught my credits up to my year. I'm okay i hope.

APSS
We had our first meeting yesterday. I think it went well. I couldn't ask for a better team. We all seem to work well, but there are still some adjustments that need to be made.

THOUGHTS
have you ever seen "what women want?" after mel gibson gains the power to read women's minds, he scans delta burke and some other woman's mind and there's nothing. that's what my brain's doing. nothing. nothing thought provoking. nothing really. all except that it's hot. i'm sweaty. it's 4:45 p.m. and i haven't taken a shower yet. I feel gross, yet lazy. I want to jump in the ocean. It's been 3 days or so. I've met a couple cats paddling out. They're alright.

FRIENDSTER
yes, san diego is a small world. everyone seems to know everyone. the world is small. friendster, this new fad puts in contact with those you lost and those you want to lose. with one click of a button, you can go through your past. Sometimes, I just don't want to reunite with my past. What's done is done and nothing should continue its legacy. Sounds rather remorseful, and almost hypocritical since i don't believe in regrets.

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