Emotion: sadistic.
Random Thought:gee, how nice to be back.
What: noise.

so i'm overdue for releasing some mental anguish. interesting, today doods said, "last semester you looked sad. you seem happier this sem." ya. interesting observation on his part. i suppose it shun through my pleasant demure. = )

let me update myself for the purposes of locating my emotion.

school:

the unthinkinable has occurred. the door was shut behind my ass telling me that there is no way that i can get into law school. there is no way that i can get into the master's program. i should just drop my 2nd major and graduate already. = ( as you can imagine, all my hopes and dreams were flushed away in the toilet. i was completely devasted, tears refused to drop until the final straw. they questioned sfsu's 2.5 requirement for msw. = ( yep. but that only makes me want to try harder and triple check everything. i cannot let it discourage me from reaching my goals. man, stupid GEs. My discernment for those irrelevant classes caused my downfall. yep, but i'm still shooting for a fall graduation. i'm still going after that internship or job in the philippines. i'm still going to go for that msw at sfsu. this is just a bump in the road. perhaps, as randy suggested, "it's just this school."

i am another statistic to the number of students who have been screwed by csusm advisors and faculty.

let me vent if you don't mind.

first i was told that they didn't have my paperwork in regards to my majors so they had to pull my graduation application.

then they told me that everything was squared away

then i have to take an extra class because of a stupid unit change in courses

then i was told i completed my upper division DD course, that was false

then i was advised to give up my criminology major and just graduate already, dude i'm 4 classes away!!!

asd;lgjfsadl;jfdsa'jf sd;afljasdflk, yes i'm p-oed

ya.

so instead of the anticipated 6 classes left (which has yet to be confirmed) i now have 8. isn't she lovely!

angst i tell you, so much angst.

life.

it's been enjoyable. got a lot of events planned for this week. it's nice having a break from such an intense relationship. i feel socialable once again. gotten back into my writing. thoughts always need to be jotted down. i went to medieval times with punita and her man. it was enjoyable. names that i haven't heard for a couple years are popping up once again.

yea, that aspect is quaint.

family.

supportive as always. love 'em to pieces.

relationship to GOD.

i admit it, i have slipped on a few of my penances. actually i gave up on them completely, but i am still holding on tightly to 3 of them. we'll see if i can continue this until the 27th.


is it but a dream that i am breathing in
deepening my slumber