why does all this have to happen now??? why does it seem when you're already down, more things just keep happening. this shit doesn't end does it?
r.i.p. jessica felicano. i know god is keeping you save for your family. although i never knew you, you were always in my life. many days i would see you on campus, in life, wanting to talk to you and reminisce about the days at mt. carmel and band. you will truly be missed.

as many of you know, i started this school semester with my mom going into surgery which has hindered her physical performance for about 2 months. i've been striving to take care of her and focus on school. just recently my sister had knee surgery, (thurs), so i've had to take care of her as well. i have a friend who's stopped talking me. i'm scared about lex. i'm failing econ. when does it end?

i'm boxed up right now with the demons of pandora's box. i'm too weak to unlock myself. if i could, i would gather all the strength to make life better for everyone. i just want it to stop. for things to be brilliant, as beautiful as a sunrise. can't i just have that, some peace.

lord,
grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
courage to change the things i can,
and wisdom to know the difference.


funny you know, i redecorated my room. placed pictures and cards every where from you. all the memories i tried to capture in my room. it made me feel better, but now i just don't know. feels like all that effort was wasted. i guess i understand. i am willing to let go.

when i gave up, i didn't give up on us.