confession: i did it again.

i read it again. dammit! it's like an addiction that i need to kick. yesterday, i continued to wade in my laziness. lex and i were late to church, just in time for communion though. we, then, ate at soup plantation. ha, jamaul boycotts the place because it has the word PLANTATION. lex seemed to like the place. after eating, we headed home to watch the simpsons. my sister is still giving me the cold shoulder, "you do it anyways." bleh, i don't know. then i talked to rosh for a while and tried to catch some shut eye. thanks to jb, i slept with one eye open. i was afraid that the boy would walk into my room. i slept for a good amount of time and then woke up at 4, realizing my phone had died, hanging up on lex. my mom insisted on turning off my light and tv, i argued. man, i don't know. maybe i'm just a big baby, but i need to sleep with the lights and tv on.

i was supposed to enjoy some pancakes today, but i didn't want to get up. the second time i woke up, it was around 11 and irma had called me and then rosh called. crazy. = )

it's a crazy world, when you first meet someone you would never think that they had such a dark past. sometimes it turns you away, but it takes strength to continue a relationship with that person. that's what makes a hero and a good friend, patience and persistance. come to think of it, i have a lot of heros in my life, a lot of people who haven't given up on me. thanks. in reality, we are all weaklings, but we have to be strong for others. they can't see the pain inside us otherwise they have nothing to hold onto. that gets tough. it takes the strength of others to make us strong enough to walk on our own. ya, i'm not good at this counseling stuff. i don't even know what i'm talking about.

man, last night i swore i listening to some sappy emo song. all these lyrics, metaphors, similies, comparisons. dude! don't lose hope, luke, i am your father!