i think my body is going downhill. i'm slowly feeling more depressed than usual. it could just be that i'm pmsing, but i don't know. i feel as if i just gained 5 lbs. today. when i stress i eat, and i'm very stressed today. i guess i need some special attention today or something. my two performers cancelled on me. = T i wish they had been able to make it but things happen. it's ok. i've been searching for some inner peace. it's been hard. i try, and i reach a wall. i don't know how to cross it. i just stare at it, absorb it, then i try a new path. lately, i've had a dim light on and a mellow cd. . romeo candido's lolo's child soundtrack. . to soothe me as i slept. there's this big hole inside me. i don't know how to fill it right now. i know i always say i have no time. . but that's not how one should live their life. there is always time for everything. you can do it all. . just manage it. make time. breathe trish. relax. things will be okay. . there is always tomorrow.
recap:long day
feeling:lost
"i've been waiting for so long, for something to lift me up." -romeo candido