confession: i feel pretty.

hah, ya right, i lied. for some reason i keep waking up early. i didn't sleep until 1 a.m. and woke up at 6:30 a.m. i don't know meng, maybe bathala is telling me to do homework. i did a good thing yesterday aside from my already "oh so wonderful human nature". i went to the bank last night for some "bid-ness". there were these two youngings chillin' on the sidewalk asking for some quarters to call home. i knew i didn't have any quarters so i just gave them a dolla, yo. i guess, then, they had left to get change. when i finished my transaction, they came back and i asked them if they got a ride home. i think they thought i asked, "do you need a ride home?" or suggesting it. they was some fear in their voice. pwuahahha. yes i'm some crazed maniac who feeds on little children, pwuahahah! so after that samaritan act, i decided to pump some gas in my car on base. i had my military i.d. when i was in the car, i swear!! for some reason, it vanished when i got closer to the military gate, that's the second time that has happened to me. i searched my car and no i.d. = T

today i have my first meeting with apss as v.p. it's going to be interesting. i'm going to be (in beverly hill terms) "doing lunch" with the president. as much as i dislike his work ethics, i can't deny the fact that he's putting in a lot of effort into his presidency.

funny thing happened yesterday. an old friend of mine asked me about the past. the past - something i don't like to bring up, but it happens anyways. it was hard for me to tell her my side of the story because i've lost trust within those people. she's been the "cool" one i guess, but still. i know some may disagree with this but i trust until i have a reason not to trust, but not completely. i cannot trust from the start as well. so back to the story, i felt like i had to wary of what i said because it might travel back to the past. it's a new page in my book. i'm trying to introduce new people and acquaintasize others.

here's the facts. i dated some guy back in high school. things didn't work out for the following reasons:
1) his questionable sexuality
not that i'm saying homosexuals or bisexuals are bad, it's just that i don't want to hear about him supposedly doing things with other guys while i'm dating him
2) friendship factor
i wasn't willing to lose my best friend over him.
3) my naivete - i went back to my ex-boyfriend.

so i hope that answers all your questions as far as that situation is concerned. that is in the past and i'm sorry that things happened that way, but i can't change it and i'd much rather leave it alone. why live in the past, when today is a present.