confession: i am a horrible student.

it's going to be the 2nd day that i've missed class, due to my procrastination. i've tried to kick the habit, but it's like a drug. i just need more. besides, it's raining hard. i don't like driving in the rain. it's scary. i don't trust myself and other drivers in the rain. that's when you know it's bad. usually, i can drive, no problem, but mixed with rain, ya.

so lately, i've been bombarded with a lot of responsibilities. i'm trying to hold them down, but they just keep piling up. it's hard trying to manage a social life between all of this. the number one factor of my time is split between lex and school. i spend as much time i do with lex with school. it's good sometimes, but i need to graduate already. i should be out in 2 years, plus i'm on probation. if i get kicked out, it's my sister part 2. hell will break out. i know i've always given the same excuse. "i have no motivation at the school." i think i've said it enough times that i truly believe it now. i'm trying to supress the thought by joining apss. apss is in a category on its own. i've realized that karma is a bitch. what i say about james will come back to me. so i'm trying to see things on a lighter side. i know he's trying his hardest to campaign for presidency and managing all his clubs, so i guess that's cool. he's a business associate more than a friend.

i'll finish up later.