i'm selfish. it's almost as if i've committed suicide. . to give up on the ones who care about me the most. to give on my life, it's almost like suicide. i don't even recognize those who care about me besides my family. believing that they would understand if i did "go away" makes it easier for me, but what about everyone else. i always believed in doing something for myself and not for others, but now. . what do i do? do i please you or please myself? it doesn't seem as if there is any "in between", just one or the other.